Am I still alive?

Oh Ya Allah… please help me to be better manage mytime. Yeah, sebegitu lama kerja tapi terlihat tak ada tabungan. Hasil sih ada, bantu2 ibu nyari duit tapi seriously, I still have no idea with my future. Of course I feel bad… I think I will finish after Lebaran. I want dissappear in very far places. Nothing left, not even myname because I want to be dissappear.

Tapi, kalau aku berhenti saat ini berarti aku tak tahu esok akan seperti apa hidupku? Tapi aku udah capek? So what should I do?