Joey’s identity

Hai guys…

Di Mobil my dir after recording v.o..

I am really feel bad for this week, bad mood! It’s not easy to organize people who have popular name and tight schedule.

And as very new post producer who has been helped by my boss so I’ve made some mistake. Yeah you already knew my jobs, when I focused in one, the others have to be done in the same way, so I need any assistance for another staff. Since I am the newest girl in that office so I try to finish all my works myself, but I can’t. So my big boss with her way trying to help me…

Crying in his car on the way to office…

pak sut bilang, dimanapun kerjaan itu akan menghadapi orang-orang dengan tekanan2nya, tapi kalau loe ambil itu sebagai something

So far sih kerjaan seperti ini benernya makan ati banget. Tapi semua aku dedikasikan untuk keluargaku, yeah just my family makes me bertahan sampai sekarang, apalagi? I am their life, juga dia tentunya. Seingatku aku pernah bilang : Apapun yang kulakukan tak pernah bisa buat aku dekat kamu deh, maybe he still loves his ex.. Deuh senengnya yg jadi si miss ex ini. Btw, lagian miss ex begitu baik, pintar, well educated, rich and loves kids so I think they are perfect couple! Differ with me, my life is not as easy as his ex, not so smart as his ex, not rich as his ex, just having myself with all my dreams. And I am not fashionable as his ex, so you just find me as An* Em*, nothing and no more than I describe about myself.

When I ask him, why he likes to be hated than to be loved. He answer me: It’s because He have no capability to love… Oh, God I am crying… I am not really hate him but doing all of this because I love him. Sebenarnya yang aku lakukan hanya ingin membuktikan cintaku padanya. Tapi karena udah ditolak, jadi aku gak mungkin bilang lagi ya… Mungkin menyimpannya sampai aku mati, tapi sebelum aku mati just in case : ada satu keinginan : aku ingin berlibur ma dia ke Yunani dan ke Jerman. Cos I love phylosophy and dunno how to understand all about, so I want him telling me story just like the professor to Sophie. Please make it coming true Allah, please as reward for me being your good servant all this time..

Jumat kemarin ada teman yang mewawancaraiku dan itu saat2 yg hectic, bad mood tadi dan uhm, udah janjian lama jadi gak enak buat ngebatalin gitu aja. Aku sempat ragu untuk menerima tawaran penulisan semacam biografi kecil gue: alasanku pertama, klo di film aku masih sangat hijau(meminjam istilah bosku), klo di Psikologi aku juga gak paham2 benar kecuali ttg tahap2 perkembangan anak dan dampaknya jika ada yang gagal hehehe, psikologi sosial pun makin terlupakan, sibuk dengan kerjaan koordinator subtitling lah, jadi officer lah yah itulah, buku2 dan kitab suci dibaca kalau sedang merindukannya saja ah..

Tapi, aku mantab menerimanya karena beberapa alasan: menurut penggagasnya buku ini nantinya tidak sedang mengeksplorasi ttg kelihaianku di film, juga hasil royalti buku akan disumbangkan ke Children Fun Tupperwa**, so I loved their way, yang concern pada anak-anak dan masa depannya. Ya buku itu ada aku dan 6 perempuan yang ke enam perempuan itu memang master sedang aku siapa ya..just An* deh alias/ a.k.a bukan siapa-siapa. Ada bunda Anne Avantie, love her design, mau donk dibuatin kebaya buat nikahanku nanti hehehe, trus bunda Waljinah, then 4 others from Padang is bunda Christin Hakim yang sukses dengan keripik Balado-nya, ada 3 lagi ada yang dokter, pemilik perpus keliling dan satu lagi Mb Shanaz Haque..rencananya tanggal 12 Des kita nginep di hotel Kempinski/HI hehehe kata Mb Debby sebagai koordinatornya, pas ultahnya dia juga. She told me a lot of things about her experience but now she freelence and  someday I wanna be that way too..

Good news, my boss except my recommendation about him and he has chance to persue his other dream, good Job An, well done!! But, for me all my kindness is will lead back on me or my family, so I sincere doing this. I think I knew a lot about love. I can share story about love for a long night with you…